Jim is gone for 3 days, and I am getting a taste of being a Mommy while Daddy is gone. I have adjusted pretty well while he's at work, but something is much different when Daddy isn't home at night. Thomas seemed like he was missing his Daddy, too. I continued on with our normal routine, playtime, dinner, playtime, jammies and bottle. Jim skyped us before Thomas went to bed. Technology has made things nice :) Thomas went to sleep in my arms so I put him in bed and went in to check on him and he's snoring with his arm clenched tight to his blankey. Jim will only be gone for 3 days, 2 nights. This is a short trip and it's good to get us all adjusted to what it'll be like when Daddy's gone for 14 days on fires.
Tomorrow I will take Thomas for another visitation with the BM. This is the first visit, without Daddy. So I am meeting the SW so she can pick-up Thomas and then a friend will meet me at the bookstore coffee shop. I am praying that the hour goes by quickly. The hardest part of these visits is when Thomas leaves with the SW. As he's placed in her carseat, he looks at us with tears pouring from his eyes, screaming " Mom--ma Dad--da" Talk about hurt. As a parent I feel like my child is reaching to me in fear, but I have to strap him in the carseat and close the door. I have been so thankful that Jim has been able to be the one who puts him in the carseat. Tomorrow, I will have to put him in the carseat. "I can do all things through God who strengthens me" and I pray that Thomas knows I will be right there when he comes back. Our visitation is from 3:00 - 4:00 tomorrow afternoon. Please be praying for us during that time, especially.
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I know you don't know me from Adam, but i just had to comment that you appear so strong through your adoption. I cannot even imagine!! Anyway, I found your blog through your WFF wives blog. I am the wife of a FS WFF (10 years - 9 with the FS, 1 contractor) and a mother to 2, boy- Danny, 4 and girl - JoJo, 3 from Northeastern Minnesota.
For longer fires with the kids (who now don't even bat an eyelash) we have a "Wheres Daddy map" I got a big map of the states from somewhere and clear tacky papered it to a couple of pieces of foam board. Now we have a special pin that we put at "home" and one where daddy is. Then I also keep marking the bigger fires as he goes to em and make a "key" of sort. We don't deal with Cali very often, so thats a little easier for us. I imagine you could only get so many pins in SoCal. :) The map hangs in the kids room and they love to look where daddy is when hes gone!
I'll also keep you all in my prayers to get through as unscathed as you all can!
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