I thought it was my last post, but this is for you

I am so thankful to have so many friends & family in our lives. I wouldn't be able to get through without my husband's love, strength and his shoulders to lean on. He is so strong even when he's hurting. I have always thought of him as my teddy bear (warm & hug-gable, always there). I don't know why this is happening, but I couldn't think of a better husband to go through this, than with him. As a couple we have been turning to God. I apologize, because yesterday we turned our backs on Him. We felt He had left us, let us fall and let us hurt. The bible tells us in many places that God never leaves His children, rather He holds us in His arms and loves on us. Today I heard this song on the radio that I haven't heard since our miscarriage (3 years ago).

Praise You in the Storm by Casting Crowns (Jim will put it on our blog soon)

I was sure by now God you would have reached down And wiped our tears away Stepped in and saved the day But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining
As the thunder rolls I barely hear Your whisper through the rain “I’m with you” And as You mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives And takes away I’ll praise You in this storm And I will life my hands For You are who You are No matter where I am Every tear I cry You hold in Your hand You've never left my side And though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind You heard my cry You raised me up again My strength is almost gone How can I carry on If I can’t find You
I lift my eyes unto the hills Where does my help come from?My help comes from the Lord The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I just find comfort in knowing that every tear we have cried He's holding them in His hand. While some days it's hard to say that and hard to feel that, God always loves us. As for all of you amazing friends & family. We would not get through this if you weren't there. Every comment and email I get brings tears to my eyes. To know that so many people care about us and understand. For those friends/family who've just sat and listened to us mourn, I thank you. For those friends who are sharing meals and blessings, I am so grateful. And for every word you've posted in our comment section, I feel so blessed and I won't lie, every word from every one of you chokes me up. Just to see how in times of saddness, friends & family are always there, just like our Saviour. So I can't gaurantee this is my final post because God just keeps tugging at my heart to share with you this journey. Just like He's not done working in our lives, I guess I'm not done with this blog. It may or may not have news of a baby/babies, but it will have our testimony of how God is using this journey to make us stronger day by day. Mom shared with me this little song last night: One day at a time, Lord Jesus is all I'm asking of you.
Please continue to lift up BM and the baby boy. May God protect her and watch over that little boy where ever she goes. God can do many things with anybody.
Please know that we are feeling better because of your thoughts and prayers. Thanks for understanding our grieving hearts. May God bless you with His mercy, too.