Last Thursday night we were filled with so much excitement. Hubby was working on creating a special (Firefighter type) birth announcement to send to friends. Friends and family were referring to baby as Jonathan, the name we chose. Friends were bringing things by to fill the nursery. We were so nervous about becoming parents, yet so excited to meet our son. The BM had been speaking with our SW and was so happy to meet us in person. She felt certain that we were the family she wanted to place her unborn son with. We definitely didn't see what was coming...........
We still find ourselves wondering what does he look like? Is she feeling okay? Are they both safe? Does BM think of us? Questions we will never have answers to. But we encourage you to pray for her as they both move on.
We do feel your prayers and love, because we find that we can talk about it a little more without tears. But, we find ourselves feeling sad at certain times of the day and night. It feels like we have had a death in the family. Smiles on our faces feel superficial, because our hearts are still aching. We know that God is our strength and that only through Him will we be able to heal from this pain. We couldn't imagine going through this without God's love and arms to hold us.
The meals that have been brought to us, have been such a blessing. The friends who call just to check on us, are so comforting. My parents who continue to stop by or call are also, encouraging. We never knew that something like this, that we only knew 2 weeks ago, could affect us so much.
For those of you who we don't personally know who've prayed for us, we can't say how much that means. We love each one of you.
One day at a time.................................... He'll wipe our tears away.
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